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Thursday, August 30 dionne's common tests, done badly i would say. i failed 3 subjects. out of the 3 subjects, the subject i think i should not fail is maths. i dont know whats up with me/class. almost half the class failed the test. maybe it is cos of him?? i shall not say his name, i dont feel like. but i think partly his fault, we dont do that badly for maths derh. whatever, hope that EOY do better loh. my mother is very angry with my resutls, yay. i realised that i cry very often recently. haha, i cried today over the overall results. so paiseh, somemore in front of tianjun. urgh. very paiseh leh. but he kinda comforted me too lah. AND i want to thank sylvia, everytime i cry, she is always beside me and sending me encouraging sms. thank you sylvia! went joanne hse today. they wanted to make cookies, me grace and liyan slacked there, but we dont actually plan to bake in the first place.haha. then i asked grace to teach me secret on the piano. i nvr learn piano befre. seriously i gave myself a lot of stress when i played the song, i dont know why. maybe cos its jay song and i really really want to learn it. okay, i shall say i am totally a noob in piano, i was so sad when i could not play the song, really sad. i know i can learn it well one day, but when will it be?? tmr going back to sv. looking forward, but SJ told me that they maybe playing bball. how boring it can be?? we cant bond again. lets see what happen tmr! Wednesday, August 29 29 aug. the court case was being postponed, he had to stay at the police station. this time, it is not a matter of 1 or 2 days, it is a matter of 15 days. who knows what will the result be? 10000 to bail him out. when i saw the sms, i dont know why i cried. it just came out. thanks to sylvia for sending me that msg, making me smile again. i know i was pretending, but at least i smiled and i laughed. hope that the oder guy get caught soon and let this matter end. everybody is very troubled/disppointed now, aunties, uncles, grandparents. i bet my great-grandmother too. to grace, sorry nvr go home with you. i was very lost at that time after reading the sms about him, so sorry. dont angry kay?? something to cheer up. won tianjun in maths by 6 mrks. yay. but ltr he crapped so much and even commented about my common test. but i finally get higher mark than him lerh! haha. dont trust anybody too much, including close people around me,thats what somebody told me today. i realise that most of the things i told them only. i believed that they will help me keep secret about it. somebody told me today that i care for friendship more than my own advantages. thats a plus point man! that means, i care a lot for my friends. arent u guys blessed & lucky?? i know who i should believe now. thanks people( you know who you are) holidays coming, i dont know what i should do. i wonder if i would really slack throughout the whole week. hope not, but i also dont feel like mugging for EOY. whatever, still got a few days. & i am going back to SV this friday. long time never see my pri sch fwens lerh, the last time was errrrr chinese new year celebrations. WOW! betrayal. i wonder if i trusted the wrong people all these while. i kept thinking, but i just cant think of something you people will betray me about. i think if that day comes, i will break down no matter how small or big it is. but i know out there, there are still people who concern about me, especially the both of them! sounding emo(no better word to describe). i realised that these few days, i get angry very easily. seriously. sorry to those who you think i was rude to you! Tuesday, August 28 many things are really happening recently. i dont know why nothing seems to go right recently. i really worry for them, okay or i should say i worry boonkiat more. jinhan seem to have lesser problem than boonkiat. the chance of he going to boy's home is very high. really very high. i think the saddest person is my grandma and my grandpa. yesterday night went to bail him out from bedok north police station.( it was officially opened on 26oct2004. my bdae leh) it was really scary at the police station, i nearly cried on the way to the police station. we waited very long before we could see him, the first thing when he saw me, he luffed. i also lah, we everytym like that derh. i can tell that he really worry for tomorrow. i mean who would not be scared. just simply hope that everything will turn out well and the truth will be out soon. www.welovekunwei.postboards59.com this is kunwei forum, or random forum? i still not very sure leh. haha. must go join cos you will defintely not regret derh. haha. sincerely, i hope everything go back to normal and all this nonsense will stop. Sunday, August 26 i guess things are better between jiaqian and joanne. hooray. our clique is finally back to normal, hopefully. i still dont know things between jiaqian and grace. haha. hip hpip hooray! LINGYUAN! okay, i dont know if u are like trying to act strong or what, but remember, you have me, or rather us. dont keep all the things to your heart and the worst thing, dont act strong. okay, i know that out clique is pretending clique, but i dont think it is good. hui zhong nei shang leh! haha. i just want to say, wo hai shi hen dan xin ni. we had already been told that we are lack of communication. we dont communicate enough, we keep things in out heart. and now, we stopped talking for at least 2 weeks. maybe you will think that i am really taking it very easy, but i have to tell you i am not. i just dont want to say it out, i dont want to cry in front of you. i know its my fault, but if i apologise, will you forgive me?? i shall not be so sad anymore, i will still smile tomorrow, like normal. i dont want to be like saturday whereby i totally freaked out too. haha. tomorrow will be better, dont you agree? BEING EMO IS AN EXCUSE! i love this sentence a lot, ever since i told jiaqian, i think it makes a lot of sense. people normally say i am emo(except our clique) then they expect ppl not to agitate them or understand them when they give ppl attitude. it is only an excuse. who ask you to be emo?? Saturday, August 25 i dont know whats up with everybody recently. ok, or should i say whats up with my clique recently?? everybody looks very emo recently. okay, i admit that today i was feeling emo. no, i should not say i am feeling emo cos i dont like to be emo, i am feeling troubled today. i dont know why today i cant hide my feelings, i myself can tell that i am really troubled. i just cant do it today. but i should say i am proud to be able to smile still. seriously, i dont know why i am troubled. lingyuan today is chao scary. i dont dare to talk to her. i mean when she looks very bu shuang derh time, i wont dare to talk to her at all. i cant help it. i am scared of bushuang-ness, i am scared of ppl crying. today need to go sch for chemistry lesson, jiaqian joanne and xuemiao did not turn up. is it a good thing or a bad thing? maybe if joanne was there, we would be higher. but if she see us all emo diao, she will also become emo. but maybe her pretending skills are better than me, she can act high but deep in her heart, she is very emo and thinking of a lot of stuffs. who knows?? on the bus today, i nearly cried out. but luckily grace sms saved me from crying. i also want to say sorry to sylvia. maybe just now i said that thing too zhuai lerh. sorry, i dont know why it came out from my mouth. i dont know what was i irritated about. sorry sylvia. seems like a lot of things had happened today. hope that things will be better. hope that everything will go back to normal. congrats to grace too. she finally got her PLAY DVD today. and i still cant find the secret OST. i dont know where can i find it. i dont have the time to go cd-hunting. hope miracle will happen. haha Friday, August 24 she cried a lot today. we dont know what to do but we tried comforting her, but no use. the next moment she started crying again. xuemiao and rachel must be thinking that our clique is very bad, making her so sad. maybe i am not directly involved in this matter, but as i had said, we are one clique. i can tell today everybody in our clique is affected by this matter. although we can laugh, we can joke, but i can tell everybody is just not showing what they are feeling. including me. one thing about our clique is that we dont like to show our emotions out, we just like to pretend. haha, but the rest of us know that it is all not true. pratically flunk my CT this term, i dont know why. must really chiong for EOY lerh. everytime i say this, just cant do it. nvm, i shall try my best. i need motivation, i need someone to tell me to do the right things! today there was no maths lesson. yay. we nid to do survery at the computer lab. that means free using of computer again. use use use, suddenly practically the whole class at www.abb-coconutfm.blogspot.com. everybody is crazy, using each other name and write irriating stuffs. haha. should that be called a 206 forum?? lol. to stranger: do i know you?? if u know me, i can send you the secret OST in msn. if i dont know you, http://www.souting.com/S/8/4525/10952.htm. irritating matters just make us feel irritated. i dont see the point of making things so complicated. Thursday, August 23 this is my 50th post! hey joanne, it is the same as yours. haha. i dont know what to say but things were interesting after school! lingyuan, grace, liyan and me went to JE mac today. i wonder 11 years ltr, when i am 25yrs old, what will become of me? what will become of them?? will it be all like what we guessed today? or rather will be as true as what liyan said?? haha. i hope what liyan say doesnt come true can? hope so! haha. i shall not say what we were discussing today. but seriously thinking about it, i think we were being dumb. we are now only 14 years old and we are thinking very far back. really far. 11 years is a lot! anyhing could happen during these 11 years. who knows?? okay, i am kind of irriatated by what is happening to our clique now. to lingyuan: the dan chun gurl. woohoo, hope that we dont even get those probs. we wont right?? i know we wont. haha. maybe sometimes angry with each other awhile for dont know what reason, we can always solve it. YAY. 11 years down the road, hope that i dont see you already ahem lerh hor. haha. hope we go same class nxt yr. but i think wont loh, since u taking triple science and i planning to take double science. see first lah, cos i also dont want take geog. haha. to sylvia: the crazy girl. you are not complicated but seriously i dont understand u sometyms. u keep a lot of secrets to yourself and u are always thinking a lot. when you emo derh time, very scary loh. seriously. to grace: COMPLICATED GURL! okay, we do think alike most of the time. and i am always the person you like to suan. whatever i say u dont believe. okay, and i am scared of you. i am not joking. i am really scared of you. i dont know when u will suddenly sad or angry. to joanne: u admited that u are complicated. yay. u are a totally diff person in sch and at home. thats what we think. dont spend too much money hor! haha. to liyan: scary person. everytime using THAT THING to suan me huh?? lol. you not exactly in our clique but u are considered. dionne is crapping. yay. to jiaqian: after what u said, i seriously dont know what to say. i dont want to interfere too much either. it is all up to you. i suddenly want to thank you guys. i dont know. hanging out for so long, i am really very glad to know you guys. if only i knew you from the start of last year, i bet we will have a great time in the orientation camp. dont you guys agree?? Tuesday, August 21 common tests are finally over! thats a good thing but the sad thing is that i flung them all. practically all of them. i really have no confidence. i studied, but seemed that i just cant do the paper. whatever, what have been done cannot be changed, just hope that i dont fail so badly can lerh! watched ylbfb today and the guest for today is JAY and nanquanmama. JAY did not sing and song today but played a piece of song on the piano. dantou and zhangjie practically ruined bunengshuodemimi song. they sang out of tune. they everytym like that derh, expected. but in any ways, they are still better than that fahrenheit. haha. i saw my inbox today and i saw a email. it said that someone replied to my comment in youtube. it was a fahrenheit live performance. i think i typed " omg, they cant sing!!!!!!" then a lot of ppl say what they can sing, they improved and stuffs. the person who replied to me said " finally someone who have ears!" haha. so happy sia. when i first saw my email, i tot surely they want scold me lerh. who knows?? haha. shuang! but fahrenheit cant sing! yay! watching JAY videos as usual. i think after talking to ms chian, i was totally emo diao. but i told myself not to, ltr they bu shuang, so i tried to remain calm. okay, maybe s till got a bit emo lah. but still, i tried! and that lingyuan crazy one lah, what the, say want cry. kao loh. haha. siiian! Friday, August 17 17 aug. today is junyang birthday according to lingyuan. but i dont care. hai die artises, i dont care. haha. okay, today maths common test. i flunked it? yeah! i mean some questions i did not manage to get the answers and i never do finish. so how you expect me to do well?haha. okay, anyway we had a fun time talking to mrchew today. MR CHEW IS VERY NICE! haha. i always think so but today den i know he is also very lame derh. me and lingyuan started commenting on his hair then stuffs. then say what he give hinted answers for the re-test. yalah. then started talking about his appearance, white hair, long eyelashes, gel hair and a lot of stuffs. then he said he is from mars. mind you, he said he accidentally fell from mars then landed at earth. haha, very lame right? someone every told me that he is married but i dont believe. he is like only 27 years old and he is married. yalah, then crapped with him for 1 hour plus can?? then left sch at 4 plus. still need to go lot one buy bag. yay, i finally bought the bag. i can t see my new blogskin! i am so irritated can? haha. whatever lah, i dont want to post lerh. lazy... Thursday, August 16 changed a new blogskin. i dont know why i chose this blogskin,maybe because of the colours?? wonder how u think about this blogskin? gosh,i think i would fail my geog. okay not i think, should be i confirm will fail lerh. my geog is never good. i dont know how to crap and i have a teacher who i dont know how to describe. the most important thing, i dont even have interest in geog. i dont care what pollution or stuff lah. i will not take geog nxt yr, seriously. mdm poon discussed the common test today, roughly. all the things she said i was not familiar at all. then that kunwei and tianjun keep saying they would fail. at that time i really felt like shouting over the classroom " can u guys just shut up? " they are always like that. irritating. heck care about the geog common test lerh, tmr maths leh. i so scared. haha.anw, just now grace told me that she is scared of me. she said in the whole clique, she is scared of me the most. i dont know why. i mean should be the other way bah, i am scared of grace in the actual fact. haha. dont know why lah. haha. she can be quite scary at times and she is complicated can?? sometimes you really dont know what the hell she is thinking about. she keeps saying that i am complicated. come to think of me, maybe i am a bit. some people just dont understand me. haha. she say i got complicated eyes. haha. dont want post lerh. so sian. Wednesday, August 15 have been finding blogskins but simply cant find one i like. i very lazy ownself go create my own blogskin. haha. whatever, next time then go find lah. listening to secret OST now. u must be thinking why can i listen?? i did not download! it is just a web with the entire secret OST in it. haha. the songs/music are all very nice. whenever i listen to a music, i would recall of the scene with that music. i mean that is what jay wanted and i think that he did it! haha, the entire movie is clearly in my head. the funny parts and also the sad parts. i dont know, but i nearly cried after listening the OST. i just realised i cr very easily. haha. okay, want go eat lerh. later yeejun coming my house. secret OST will be out soon. jiaqian say is 25aug, who knows?? shall wait and see. but i no money to buy. need to save lerh. still need buy bag, urgh. hope that the secret OST sold in singapore will have the 100 page bookelt with all the pictures! Monday, August 13 yesterday slept at 2 plus but maybe 3 plus after lots of thinking. i did not mug for my common tests at all. haha. i wanted to but in the end, i could not. reach hme too late lerh, then directly go sleep. haha. realised smth yesterday. really unimaginable, i know that if i tell some people, they will sure not believe derh. when i first know about it, i was shocked i was like 'what?' having watched so many shows and now it is happening to me! ME! it just seems so unrealistic but i have no choice not to believe it. it is not a good thing, it is not a bad thing. i dont know. ever since i knew it, i have been thinking about it the whole day. i seriously think that i am too young to know this. serious! it is not a joking matter and it seem really serious. i mean being a ....... urgh! seriously, i am scared. i am really scared. i mean who would not be scared. imagine u have been living in this world then suddenly this piece of new which u nvr thought would happen to you has happened to you. dionne is crapping. maybe a lot of you may be wondering what the heck i am toking and must be thinking why am i toking so much crap here. i need to get it off my chest.. went my grandma hse today, met my cousins. the first thing when they saw me, they luffed! i mean what the.... haha. but cant help it lah, if it happen to one of my cousin, maybe i would also be laughing. haha. i mean it is not realistic but it is the fact. haha. crapping again. haha. but ever since yesterday, i think i got some ling wu. i dont know what i ling wu but i just know there is smth i learnt a lot. everything i do, i will think very very carefully. i dont know. haha. pressure. haha. dont want talk about it lerh. seriously, let nature take its course. nobody knows what will happen in the future. nobody knows what will happen to me. sounds serious?? to me, it is really very very serious. haha. shall not crap anymore. bye. want go last minute study geog lerh. sure die derh. common tests sucks! i am lost but i know i cant. Sunday, August 12 hooray, BNSDMM is still in the first position of longhubang. yay! tests! first word that come to my mind in FAIL. it seems that i will do very badly this time. haha. but i cant or else my mom will confiscate all my stuffs of jay. i dont know what to do! yesterday talked to my cousin. we were alone in her room then talking. haha, know her secret now. i must say my assumptions are always very true. haha. talked to her, remind me of my sad stuffs. but i still smiled. i dont know what to say or do. it is all in the past. i dont know. i shall not think about it anymore, it just makes my life more terrible. i tried to forget you. Wednesday, August 8 watched SECRET just now at causeway cathay at 3.10pm. haha. i am being crazy. the whole theatre was FULL!!! really full! watched with lingyuan, sylvia, grace, evia and liyan. then is chao nice derh. i think that this is the nicest movie i ever watched. it is not that i am biased okay?? i am really talking the truth. when u watch the show, u wouldnt feel that this production is not the first movie the director has made. seriously! i mean like everything seem too pro. haha. this movie seriously need a lot of thinking. at the end of the show there will be a lot of question marks but once after u think through all the scenes, you will realise that it is okay derh. so what am i going to say?? everything scene in the show is impt! so dont miss anything of it. but first thing, YOU MUST GO WATCH SECRET! EVIA- yay. you are liking secret so much! more than what i expect! i thought you would be like feeling bored then kip toking but i was wrong. you are like so so enthu about it and you are asking me to send u videos about secret. and you are kip toking about it. yay, i love you evia! don tonly like the show hor, must also liek JAYCHOU. i noe that you are beginnning to like him more and more! GRACE- thank you for pei-ing me go see and yu are loving yuhao mre than JAYCHOU! so sad, but u said that he is cute too and you did not sleep! haha. yay! LIYAN- yay, you say the movie very nice and moving. haha. and u answered a call during the show! SYLVIA- nice show right?? i like the twist! i know u also like and iknow u liek teh piano scene. so damn nice. haha. and you kip laughing also, but should be not mroe than me.. haha LINGYUAN- sad, u did not like JAYCHOU more after you watched the show. but u are so so so moved that u cried so much! haha.. you watch show very ji dong! i know very nice right?? haha. THANK YOU PPL! this movie very funny loh. and sad also lah. haha. sometimes when there is a sad scene, then the nxt scene very funny. haha. then you like want to cry then suddenly you are smiling again. very cool loh. haha. cant type lerh.. nid to put pic in my phone Tuesday, August 7 woohoo. 1 more day and i am going to know the SECRET! finally after waiting for so long, i can finally know it. i have been thinking about it but JAYCHOU say it is something very hard to imagine. shall not rack my brain anymore, i will simply wait for tmr when i watch it. haha.cant post lerh. nida go eat dinner. Monday, August 6 today is exactly one week after the unhappy incudent(300707). if u have been reading my post, maybe you will know what i am toking about. haha. the entire day, i have been thinking about last week. in sch, at JE mrt, at home. i remembered at this time, a lot of ppl were comforting me and encouraging me to go too. nvm its all over. haha. i will wait... today as usual, boring day. slept during chinese lessons today. she did not teach anything afterall. then i was like slpong then i heard a lot of quarelling. i was like wondering what happened. heard lingyuan sylvia voice.. actually dont want wake up but they like kip tok tok tok. woke up den i noe what happened. haha, they were like quarelling with zhengmian over the ans in chinese test. haha. i mean like it is expected that the ans will not change lerh. haha. at last they still lost. haha. tomorow got class phototaking. hate it man. nida to wear tie leh! haha. sumre in the afternoon lah, so hot. i will be sweating like siao lah. haha. just now grace show me a forum discussing that JAYCHOU and hebe lyrics about the same then talking about their rumour. i am not pissed by that but i am pissed by some comments posted. shall not type it here.. but some did help to talk for JAYCHOU. three cheers for them. i mean ah whatever. my mom told me that my brother injured his hand.. kinda worried. still dont know what happened. shall wait patiently for my mom to come home. hope that he did not get into a fight. 2 more days to 080807. i cant wait to watch the movie. heard that the piao fang in china and hongkong are quite good. must be a nice nice movie! i think i am starting to fall in love for you but i just dont dare to believe. why must it be you? Sunday, August 5 okay! finally posting after so many days! haha. to those who comforted me in my tagboard, THANK YOU PEOPLE! i really appreciated it. i asked sylvia to help me tag in the tagboard loh, cos i cant see the tags! haha and i dont know for what reason can??today go cut hair. mass cut hair. haha. me lingyuan and grace and liyan all cut. lingyuan cut her hair short but it is like simply no difference. i dont know why. then me should be the hairdresser cut bao bah! haha. then grace say she want cut hebe hair, but dont know why dont look like loh. maybe the hairdresser dont know how to cut. haha. i dont know what to say about my hair. i think that there is simply not much difference! just read a post at jcnet. i shall quote it part of it lah. the post is simply very long. i shall take the translated one. Jay’s mother was also very worried about Jay’s mindset of doing everything himelf, as there was one scene in the movie where he had to break glass windows. Jay filmed it personally without using a substitute, causing her to be shocked. There was one scene even worse than this, which Jay’s mother hasn’t watched yet- it was an outdoor one which requires Jay to climb up scaffoldings. Originally, Jay only needed to learn how to climb up one floor, however at the last-minute, Jay decided to learn to climb the other floors too. When he reached a height of 2 storeys and six metres, a slipping action was added, freaking the workers out. Jay did not have any safety belt, and just for the sake of the nice image, he climbed up and down for ten plus times. In fact, because Jay is the director and he wants to see the feel of the image in the camera, he always requests the substitute to act it out first, but filming the official scene himself. As for dangerous scenes, Jay hardly used any substitutes. scary loh. JAYCHOU simply dislikes substitues loh. haha. reading the post is making me more excited about it lah. a few more days to go!  shh. keep the SECRET to yourself!  gui lun mei JAYCHOU yehuimei (jay's mother)
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