I'm normal!

		I'm loving it! But you put on quite a show, really had me going. But now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing. That was quite a show, very entertaining. But it's over now Go on and take a bow.

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Thursday, January 31 HEBE AND JAY!!!! perfect match!!! i am supposed to be out with my cousin now but tomorrow got test, then decided not to go out with her. yeejun, i am so so so so sorry. i think mrschang is angry with 307. cos she wanted to teach us more but then it was recess already so someone shouted class stand class greet and stuffs lah. then we were very noisy throughout the whole lesson too, yah so mrschang just got so fed up. she closed(slammed) the laptop, flung the door and walked out of the class without greeting us. Nice one! actually i think a lot of teachers have the impression that 307 is not a good class, with all the problematic students. where got loh? then that hist tchr today say what give 307 homework, smth like very difficult. cos we wont do it. wahha. 307!! &&& mrstan told us that penglaoshi told her a few days ago that our class attitude in class was better already compared to the past, then the whole class went laughing. wahaha, we wasnt even listening in his class, keep talking, then he still say our class attutude good. hahha. pictures of the crazy girl beside me in class(gracekangyixuan) nice effect yeah! wahahhahahahhah! i believe i can fly! she looks like the powerpuff that bad guy. forgot his name. can u stop appearing in front of me? Wednesday, January 30 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIYAN & NICK! i realised i am always very sleepy during the first few periods in sch, then whenever mrs tan start asking us to do questions, i would be awake already. i dont know why! penglaoshi lesson was slack time again, i wonder who listens in class, other than songru & some others. i mean he is crapping all the way, i tried once to listen to him, but i dont get what he saying so i gave up eventually. mrkoh was sick so he did not teach anything today so me and grace completed our maths hmewrk. yay. shenyong was giving that diao face when he saw us doing the maths. i realised i have been doing my homework recently, perhaps because of grace. i see her do then i will do de. physics lesson, tianjie sat beside me in class. i felt so small beside him, he is a shy person. then that stupid grace kept touching my hand, then long story. i bet with her that if she touch tianjie hands then she can ask me do anything. & she really touched and that made me her slave for today. but i did nothing also, just helping her do stuffs. then went pizza hut to celebrate liyan birthday. she should be honoured man, so many ppl help her celebrate siahh. i realised one more thing, 307 likes singing birthday songs, perhaps to waste time. jaychou concert dvd is not out yet, what the hell. i am like so eager for the concert dvd, super excited & i dont know why. AH, CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVICE? if i should go on sunday to see jay? at bugis sqre & suntec? i dont know if i should go not leh.. reasons i should go: 1. it is like so rare he would come singapore, and who knows when is the next time he would be coming? his next movie? his next concert? 2. its another chance i can see him!!! 3. its jay lehhh!!! omgomgomg reasons i should not go: 1. there is hist test the next day -.- 2. i dont like squeezing here and there & waiting & queuing. it sucks okay?? 3. what if i cant see jay? my dad(forgot yst or today) reminded me not to think so much of jay in class & pay attention. eh actually, yst and today also got. i am like siao lohhh!! then my dad see any articles on newspaper about jay, he will take and give me see. so nice of him(: i feel like telling my cousin i dont want go out tmr. cos like i got tests and it is super super rush. but she needs me to help her do things after that, how??!! Tuesday, January 29 saturday night was a bad one, i shall not say what happened. but luckily everything turned out well already, i am really glad. or else i really dont know what i can do. yesterday went to out with my parents. my dad went to buy guitars, one for himself, one for my dad's friend sister. he added another guitar to his collection. at home now got like 4-5 guitars le. arnd there lah. then cos my bro's rm nobody staying, that room like become his music rm, the guitars all there. hahha, i want learn drums lah. i am jealous of grace, can learn drums. wahhh!!! then saw my brother yst, yay. i think after 2-3 weeks. but see him awhile he want go out with his friends le, aiyah. his friend damn extra siah, everytime at my grandma house, then i want talk to my brother then he there, i dont dare talk to my bro. that guy also ah beng ah beng de. SIAN. suan le. today tot can buy the concert dvd & the xie zhen shu. i went to westmall popular and i found none. urghhh!!! nvmnvm, shall see tmr. cos i saw the forum, they changed the expected release date to tmr, so lets see. & i can collect my specs tmr. the xie zhen shu, i think i next week then buy. cos i no money buy now!!! jq lah, qi pian wo de gan xing. say want pay some for me, then today dont want give me money. suan le, jq, i dont need your money. hmmmphhh. wahahha. liyan sponsored me 4 bucks. i am broke!!! i hate the feeling of broke, totally sucks lah.. urghhh. gone crazy in class with grace again, always like that de. & during hist class, there were only 19 ppl in the class. WOW!!! hahha. shall upload pictures(: its rare that i would upload pictures of me!! oh & my cousin. yeejun & me baichi look oops i like the effect & my hair looks nice in this pict only. waha. trying not to care about you-.- u suck, u totally suck!!! Sunday, January 27 i am supposed to be studying now but whatever. i shall study later. i didnt know that kungfu dunk xie zhen shu is sold in singapore until jq told me she saw it in popular. i was like WHAT and YAY! haha, but no money to buy. but liyan & jq say they can pay half for me, so its okay!!! JQ AND LIYAN, REMB GIVE ME MONEY HOR. I AM THE MONEY SUCKER, DONT FORGET! i keep repeating the part where jay cried in kungfu dunk, i tell u its perfect man!! the tears just fell like that, so touching. i bet i am gna cry in the cinema when i saw that part. jay's mom said she cried after watching that part also. jay cried 3 times in 3 movies. &&& jay got beaten up in the movie, until very jialat, thats what i think now. got bruises and blahblahblah. hahha. i want watch!!!!!! you dont need to read below lah. its about jay. somehow i dont want jay to come singapore, cos he is sick, sick very long le lohh. then keep seeing him cough in vids. ahhh, & he hates eating medicine. so if he dont come singapore, he can rest. his schedule is like so packed lah. concert & xuan chuan-ing of his movie. he has been flying a lot recently. ahhhh. so poor thing. Friday, January 25 last week at this point of time, i was still outside. ahhh. 1 week passed, damn fast man! one week ago, i was at the concert, highing and everything & now, i am using the computer, thinking of the past. the next concert, 2/3 more yrs?? i am again thinking, when will i stop liking jay? he is not my idol, i just cant describe my like for him. its a different like from other ppl like luozhixiang & etc. okay whatever, i seriously miss jay. will i be seeing him on 3rdfeb? still not confirm i want go not & i am desperately looking for the premier tickets. any kind soul willing to go crocodile to buy stuffs(at least $150 i think) ahhhh. mrtan(new p.e tchr) let us go for early recess today, okay i lazy type what happen during p.e lesson but u want know, go jq blog. then recess we(grace,joanne,jq, yian, jiayi) were talking about ghost stories & how haunted nh is. scary la. then jq and joanne were like so so so scared. hahaha. malay lesson slacked again. chemistry test wasnt as difficult as i though, at least i think i can hit my target(12.5/25) then boring lessons... after sch stayed in class until 3 plus, cos jq was doing her maths. she very da pai can, made us wait for her. then yijie & axel? were blasting music in out class using the speakers. they are just like primary sch kids, fighting & blahblahblah. then went jec with grace and jiaqian. ate at ljs & foodshop. then go popular cos i wanted to see if jaychou concetr dvd come out le. & grace bought me a disc, it is s.h.e concert dvd. it cost 9.90 only lah, there wrote clearance sale. then grace very angry. wahahha. thanks grace anw, i will sure watch the concert de. then went grace's house cos i meeting my mom at jp. stayed at her house until 7 plus. ohhh yeah, before going her house, damn funny. i shall not write here. GRACE!!!! hahahahahhahaa. sec3 le lehhh!!! hahaha, then we were talking about smth and kept laughing. i think when both of us together de time, chao crazy de. in class also like that, outside also like that. tsktsktsk. then met mom at jp, walk walk. then ate at kfc. i dont like walking with my mother(shopping okay but as in plain walking) cos her walking speed very very fast. then i need to walk extremely fast to catch up with her. hahahha. looking forward to tues, can collect my specs. hope i do look good with that specs or else i will pek chek. cos i nvr really go see, yst got mood then go do specs. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MINGHE(25jan08) although i think he wont get to see this but whatever!!!! at least i talked to you today, can tell that you feel very guai too. whats the problem huh? i made my specs today. woohoo. although not the type i wanted but i think still acceptable. shall collect the specs next tues. tmr got chem test, & is total sianess. i have been failing my chem for the whole of sec2 except for eoys. chemical formulae? i nvr really go memorise before, everytime see then forget. today tanyifang say our class got attitude just cos we did not give her response and our expressions always the same. like that also can?! nothing much happened in sch, took height and weight today. i am so happy with my height 164cm!!! but not my weight. i need to lose weight like seriously but i keep eating fast food): oh and my hp is officially spoilt today. shall just throw it somewhere. now using another phone, new phone. but not today buy de, is last time buy then at first i want use but my mom say dont wnt. then later want let me use le, i say dont want. that's me! yah so, just taking this phone until i get my new one in april(so long!!!) i am sorry if i hurt you in anyway. i dont know if you know i am referring to you. but i dont know, these 2 days, just got irritated over what u said. i dont know why also. perhaps, i am not very interested in what you say about cards & everything else. i am just so so so sorry. paiseh!! why do i always feel that whenever we see each other, there is this funny feeling. it just feels like strangers when we are not! a simple smile please? Thursday, January 24 koped from grace's blog. okay, i know the words are ugly okay?? hahahah, cos i got no artistic talent mah. cant blame me right?? my eyes(grace say look like jay's but i dont think so. his eyes so nice and mine like shyt! but i quite happy also) are super small!! seriously-.- i have been posting practically everyday. is that supposed to be a good thing or what? sometimes i just feel like deleting this blog but suan le. hahahaha. i finally completed my physics graph like after so long, hahah. graphs sucks lah, thats the worst thing to do in maths & physics. elect hist is simply so difficult lah, i dont even get what that tchr talking about, heng nvr take pure hist cos will be very difficult and there will be no james koh!! hahaha. tmr got his lessons, woohoo! then today physics SPA so sian. cos stephanie nvr come then i so bored, nobody talk to. urgh. i want go overseas with friends, hope this yr sch got organise, mwhahaha. then me & grace gna go crazy, best go taiwan! hahaha. recently, grace and i keep laughing and laughing over minor things. & GRACE, IS YOU MAKE ME LAUGH. the bird.... wahahahhahaha. oh and this afternoon, this crazy guy called me up. he did not want to tell me who he was lah, then i keep asking he dont want say. then he keep saying i good lah, forget him le. & what i 2 mths ago called him before. then asked me one qn that xia dao me. uhhhh. i want know who he is but i dont dare call back le. gosh, later is someone play prank on me. scary lah!!! did i spend jay's 29th birthday with him? OMG!!!!!! can we at least talk, pass by each other, look at each other, nothing more. a simple hello or bye will do or even a simple smile. it will make my day. please? Wednesday, January 23 changed my blog song. this is kunfu dunk song by jaychou & his makeup artist. his makeup artist so damn lucky can as in can sing song with jay, film mv, film movie. he famous le loh! hahhaha. doufu & kungfu!! i want watch the movie cos i just saw some clips then very nice, jaychou gna cry again. hahaha. & he's cute cute cute funny funny funny!!! got class jersey today, starting to like it actually, esp my number 67!!!! want to know how to get it? i lazy type out, but smth to do with my birthday and jaychou birthday!! grace's number also nice, 63. smth to do with her bdae and hebe of cos. hahaha. BUT my name is not in caps!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. missyeo approved our jersey! thanks to those who went to find her. nothing much actually. ohh i completed the whole chemistry worksheet myself!!! i am like so proud of myself. & i am loving my chinese teacher more and more, if u get what i really mean. he's just so WOW!! cant stand it man! from starting of sch till now, never listened to any physics lesson before, today also nvr. i dont know whats the prob but i just dont want listen. you go and die lah. we looked at each other for quite long, i wanted to say something but nothing came out. we simply turned our head away. a simple 'bye' i cant even say out. what's up with me?? Tuesday, January 22 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, jaychou should have left singapore by now already. shyt la, i am really missing him like siao. keep on thinking and thinking and thinking. the precious 2 hours plus in my life. haha. & i was reading the news about jaychou concert in wobao, & i saw me! hahaha, i was like in the picture and so damn ugly. i think cos that time i was singing & i was swaying to the music? i dont know but i only know the picture is odd! yay, appeared on the same page as jaychou news! woohoo! hahaha! although the pict got other ppl lah. went grace house to complete geog proj. our masterpiece very nice lah! didnt expect it to be so NICE! hahha. then took 172 to lot 1 to meet my friend to pass him something then had dinner with liyan. i laughed until i cried again. the first time was like in class whem grace told me ........ then i also laughed until i cried. today eyes very pain, maybe thats why so easy can cry bah. 2 stubborn ppl, what should i do? x wants it her/his way and keeps hiding stuffs, y wants it her/his way also & dont want to hear explanations. what am i supposed to do? can i also just tell z not to interfere? i am confused. perhaps this is part of growing up. i am very afraid what will happen next. i am watching dnyby & i hvn do my hmewrk! ahhh Monday, January 21 i need to help my friend burn(rip) jaychou disc(all albums except on the run) see i so good! haha, no lah, cos he help me buy hp strap so i help him burn. & its his birthday yst, how can i turn him down? shall burn(rip) later. yesterday went grace's house do geog proj. before that went bento box eat dinner. it happened very fast, the previous day, me and grace were just collecting the jaychou concetr tix from the sistic outlet beside bento box and yesterday, the concert has ended. ahhhhhhhhh. yesterday very sad, keep thinking about jaychou and the concert, really damn sad man!!! aiya. & grace rest on her bed throughout the whole night. i slacked too, seemed like only joanne liyan and jiaqian were doing it, cos i dont dare touch that disgusting thing. yucks. & i was very happy after 11 cos that means the jaychou concert has ended. yst concert got bnsdmm skit by nqmm & JAY'S WAI PO WENT UP THE STAGE TO DANCE. & i missed it. awwwwww nothing to post, need go burn(rip) disc le. JAYCHOU WHICH PART OF SINGAPORE ARE YOU IN NOW??!! Sunday, January 20 credits: JCNET koped from someone's blog(: 南拳妈妈 sidekick: Jay, have you been eavesdropping on us? Jay: Huh? Why? 南拳妈妈 sidekick: Because you seemed to know beforehand that we were planning to sing you a birthday song. Jay: Well, a person like myself, I've always been of above average intelligence. ("我这个人呢，一向来是比较聪明的啦.") this is the clip whereby the whole stadium sang happy birthday with nqmm leading. look at the screen, look at jaychou's actions!!! very cute!! he acted like he was conducting and was crying! okay, i shall update on jaychou's concert. one word - TERRIFIC! i did not take any pictures cos grace advised me not to and i think will also distract me watching jaychou. & i did not bring my camera and if i want to take picts, have to use my handphone and i dont want to. cos i scared see the time, times flies in the concert. seriously, very very fast. i think the concert about 2 hours plus, close to 3 hours. bravo. & i love my seat a lot!!! cos it is very very very very very near the stage & that means i can see his face damn clearly even without the help of the screen. but i am not happy cos of smth, jaychou keeps going to the side & when he plays the piano, i cant see his face. but when he douqin with yuhao de time, i can see his face, his fingers on the piano, pro!! & his dance improved, a lot. although i think he still thinks very paiseh, cos when he had to dance with this dancer who back is bare, he keep tou tou smile. hahhaaha, like dont dare touch. haha. & his singing yesterday was good, though can still hear he a bit sick. & he talked a lot yesterday!!! really a lot, joked a lot too. & i like the part where he and nqmm talked and how nqmm leaded us in the singing of the bdae song(above) and the way he acted like he was conducting & how he pretended he was crying. hahahhahaha, really funny. dantou, yuhao, zhangjie very nice-looking, compared to on tv. & i forogt is dantou or zhangjie who waved at me(okay not me only, is me, michelle, & the girl infront of us) when jaychou came down the stage, the whole stadium was in a total chaos. okay not the whole stadium la, the front and the middle cos at the back they cant really see so cant blame them. then michelle and me rushed to the front. but was blocked by the security guard at first. then michelle heck care, squeezed through the barrier then i also. hahhahahah. so that was the time i saw jaychou the closest i ever seen him. he was like just infront of me, just infront!!! hahhaha, then the people there were like trying to let him shake his hand(including me) but he nvr shook my hand. sad, but can see him that close already very very good le, really very very close. "encored" 3 times, they were all planned la, but also considered encore bahh. yah so, the concert was super high!!! i was like perspiring a lot, like in the front ppl at the back stood up then me and michelle want stand up but scared block ppl. so we did not. we asked the people besides us but they said they wanted to sit. asked the ppl infront, she said she scared blocked ppl. but after that we all heck care, we just stood up!! swaying the lightsticks & that thing i dont know what to call it, that was the first time, in public, i totally high until siao. jumped, sang loudly, screamed/shouted loudly. & rushed to the front! it was just too good!!!! but it ended all too quick. after the concert, i got no feeling. i was really happy( i dont know what word can describe) but i was like feeling "just now i was really at the concert right?" then during the concert, i still cant believe he was standing in front of me singing. it was just so shuang!!! hahahha. & liked the last part of the concert, when dantou came out dressed like a girl and wanted to try to hug and kiss jaychou. then jaychou was like trying to avoid and was running on the stage, both of them at that time seemed like little kids running about. really very very cute. but at last, dantou managed to kiss jaychou's cheek. shall post pictures(other ppl take de) next time!! yst was shuang, we went in through the PREMIER entrance!! & got a free BIG poster! i want to go jaychou concert today, but tickets all sold out le!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss jaychou): it's all over now. haix. yesterday was the best day of my life! & i think jaychou really enjoyed himself in the concert, he really talked a lot, joked a lot & he kept smiling & can u imagine the whole stadium singing birthday song for him?? that was just too great. & the song anjing, there was 1 part, shi yin wei wo tai ai ni, the faced the mike to the crowd and we sang really loudly. actually practicially all the slow songs, there was a big singing session! hahhahaha!!! JAYCHOU!!!! actually he quite shuai lehhh!! & he has grown skinnier, ohhhhh. too bad never see his mother. i now very sad! Saturday, January 19 HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY JAYCHOU!!!! later is the concert le, omgomgomgomg. still cant believe yet. & i got the 200bucks tickets like FINALLY! hahha, row 4!! super happy!!! i am still like feeling lost & confused but very very happy & excited. yesterday was a bad day actually. cos i went home, saw the forum and saw that they released extra 200 seats. so i asked michelle want buy not, she say okay. & at that time liyan cousin already promised me want to buy my previous tickets so i ordered the 200bucks tickets then she suddenly tell me she dont want le. WTH. then i was so damn worried i cant sell out the tickets, so i asked a lot of ppl to help. thanks grace, liyan, this guy on msn, stephanie & EVIA. cos she helped me find my buyer. woohoo!!! so yesterday was rather a bad day lah!!! hai, but everything turned out well after on. at least i hope evia's friend will really turn up and buy the tickets. cross fingers! i shall not post le. cos i am rushing for time. i need to get out of the house soon. & thanks to stephanie, she passed me the jaychou gongzai & notebook le!! although she keep disturbing me by showing me the things and not passing to me. but thanks anw!! sec 3 got a lot of tests. zzz TODAY IS THE DAY! TODAY GNA ROCK. TODAY IS JAYCHOU BIRTHDAY, TODAY IS JAYCHOU SINGAPORE CONCERT, TODAY IS THE DAY I AM GNA SEE JAYCHOU!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Thursday, January 17 anybody want to buy jaychou concert tickets? 280 for 1 pair. cat3 tickets!!! pls buy from me!!!! Just a short short post, i am rushing for time. i need to start studying at 4pm. nothing much happened today, chao tired today, lucky got grace to 'entertain' me or else i sleep in class le. maths test wasnt as difficult as i thought. lucky liyan told me the formula for the last qn or else i die lohh. went home with jiaqian and grace. me & grace go clementi the FOOD SHOP eat lunch. nan de lehh! then talk talk talk laush laugh laugh. & we saw a beetle & caoge! then on the mrt, grace was like mo fang-ing the guy opp, then i keep laughing and laughing. wahahahhahaha. 2 more days!!! i shall not biased, yay, nqmm is the special guest. dantou, zhangjie, yuhao & lara. i mentioned lara. 2 more days. omgomgomgomg. i feel like i am not prepared for the concert, as in xin li zun bei. ahhh Wednesday, January 16 its only the third week in school & seems like a lot of teachers already complain about 307. er not making sense loh! penglaoshi "flared" up today. i included the inverted commas cos he thinks that he is scolding but in fact, he was like talking. his voice no power de, cant shout. then i keep laughing & laughing with grace. then minghe keep on talking crap. hahahhaa, so funny lah. ohh & that worm or caterpillar died. seems like everyday got new worm/caterpillar come out lah, 2 days le loh. & TODAY IT WAS ON MY SHIRT. DAMN IT! lucky grace took it away before i looked at it or else i would be so damn freaked out. shenyong was trying to staple the paper around it and i think he accidentally hurt it & it was injured. then finally it died. eew. today never listen in class again, as usual, except maths. i dont know how to do amaths. then tmr got test on hols hmewrk. yao feng diao le. ohhh, i scored full marks for my geog test. & most of the thing, i studied on that day only. i am like so proud of myself. but i not confident for this coming thursday test. more things to memorise. & i would not have the mood to study also. ahhhhhhhh after sch went library, went to photocopy answers. then er, be one day 'librarian' laughed a lot because of abnormal grace. hahahahha. today stephanie was like saying got any idol thing can ask her pei me go. then she asked me got go for the secret promotion thing. okay, mentioning about this, stupid cousin!!! hai me cannot see. so btw, if i knew her earlier, i can go with her liao lohhh!!! wasted siah!! & she want give me jaychou gongzai & this 'notebook' cos she got her album imported from taiwan. next time ask her help me also, can get so many things compared to lousy singapore. thanks stephanie in advance. 3 more days. it's getting nearer and nearer. & NQMM is the special guest, woohoo!!!! just hope Lara gets sick and cannot come. hahhahaha, i know i am bad. but i dont want see Lara. but still nvm!!! got dantou, yuhao & zhangjie!!! & of course, JAYCHOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tuesday, January 15 sch was okay today. other than geog & maths, i think i listened to none of the lessons. more of chatting actually. teachers cant be relied on sometimes for good results, listen to their lesson also no use de lohh. jameskoh was fun as usual, geog test was okay, easier than i expected. & penglaoshi made me hate him even more today, i am starting to miss ZHENGMIAN, like what shenyong said, zhengmian is so much btr than penglaoshi. & mrstan abit fedup with us today, since she explained the qn so many times & we still dont understand. hee pon co again. according to one girl, i dont know her name, i only got 25% for attendance. then like 2 ppl who never ask me go co de ask me go today. qi guai. will miracle happen, i pon all the way & then they will let me quit like finally? i was like damn angry lah, i went 303, shinyi and that ex 201 girl were like asking me got go co not, then i just slammed my book on the table. really irritated, not cos they asked me go co but cos i dont want go co & the thought of co just make me uncomfortable. perhaps i was too tianzhen, thinking maybe 1 day i will like co & stay until sec 4, but it really seeme impossible. i tried to try but sad to say, cannot lehh. damn it lah. this gigantic cake for jaychou. omgomg. many people are like wishing him happybirthday NOW which is like 4 days later, i shall wait, & wish his happy birthday with all the fans in the indoor stadium on the ACTUAL DAY!!! jaychou fans must be so jealous of singapore fans!! he is shivering. ohhhhh hebe very pretty!! i like the way she looks at jaychou(: 4 MORE DAYS! 4 MORE DAYS! 4 MORE DAYS! grace want cry liao. dont cry lah hor. the way i look at you really very different? Saturday, January 12 my legs are aching, perhaps i walked too long today. at first today dont want go out de, want study geog & hist & do maths holidays hmewrk. i got do maths but a few questions nia, cos i was stucked with questions, i seriously forgot simultaneous equations, matrices & all the shyt lah. pekcek leh. must revise le or ask liyan help me recap le. i seriously think i am falling sick leh, today lin yu again. went westmall with my cousin, she wanted to buy clothes so i pei her. but there very sian so we went arcade play, play awhile nia cos i dont like westmall arcade. then go down the escalator saw tianjun with phoebe. i told my cousin they were stead, then she said they looked more like siblings than stead. haha. but seriously lah, they were standing quite far apart. then i saw tianjun's family like on another level. then i asked him his parents knew he stead with phoebe ar, he said ya. i totally sian diao, bring phoebe out with his family lehhh!! wth, cant he bring her to another place. aiyo. then me & my cousin went IMM. my cousin tried many clothes but she only bought one. i like the one she bought, very nice. but i dont think suit me lehh. sian! then walk walk walk saw kunwei! so qiao, 1 day see tj and kw. haha. kw said he went to collect his scholarship so he was wearing his uniform. after go eat, saw him again. then me & my cousin went popular cos we wanted to buy one scorpio book but cant find. go another popular also dont have, no stock seh. after that around 8plus jiu go back le. then my another cousin asked me solve 1 maths qn. wth, i spent so long solving a p5 qn. but very luan lehh, also cant use algebra. must recap what i learnt in p5. but i still solved it! i was like super happy with myself lahh. 5/6 MORE DAYS TO JAYCHOU CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & his birthday of course. omg, he gna be 29, old leh! but nvm!!! stupid asknlearn made me wake up so early. actually dont need wake up so early de bah, i think. lucky liyan called me at like 9.40plus, i was like still sleeping. then wash up then on compt le. & that dumb chinese, i think i tikam a lot lohh, so damn chim can? dont get what the heck the whole passage talking about. got 珊瑚 & 四面楚歌 appear in the passages. why cant everyday be e-learning? teacher can just conduct their classes online, why do we still need go school. waste time siah. e-learning rocks like omg, but for people like me, if everyday e-learning, i dont need study le. i am controlling my usage of compt, cant use too long le. yesterday finally got my history textbook. LINGYUAN THANK YOU for telling me bigbookshop got sell. & thanks to grace and liyan for pei-ing me to buy. yesterday raining, then grace liyan and me got stuck in school but in the end we still walked in the rain. me and grace cover our head with p.e tee. then liyan got umbrella. she expected 3 of us to share the same umbrella, siao! then go buy book, then go sumo house eat. talked quite a lot. i thought a lot at there. liyan dont want tell me things, actually i dont know if i should believe that she really dont know or what. am i complicated or what? she keep asking me not to think so much, i am really trying very very very hard. curiosity siah! ohh and yesterday's geog lesson was funny because of jameskoh!!! he totally rocks! cute teacher. & me and grace did not talk during ss lesson, we so guai. then tanyifang was like seeing class list and called yanting. then i still dont know is me, i go ask grace, me ar? then she nodded her head. so guai, teacher calling me yanting. this shows that she dont know how to pronounce my name. wahhaha. got co but i nvr go yst, i wonder how am i going to survive for 1year plus more. dont let me quit, dont let me pon, what they expect me to do? 7 more days!!!! will there be a jaychou birthday party in singapore? do we get to celebrate with jaychou? will there be a qutograph session in singapore? omgomgomgomg. 1 more week, exactly 1 more week. i think i will want to cry after the concert): but i shld not be worrying about that now cos the concert is 1 week later. it is coming and not over!!! no one knows what will happen 20 years down the road or so, or maybe some people do know. is it a right thing to not know what will happen years later? some unbelievable things are really very hard to believe, you can choose to believe or choose not to. what if you are stuck in between. things seem so real and yet you can think that perhaps it is not real & give lots of reasons. will there be one time, you totally trust someone & whatever the person say, you wont have a second thought and immediately believe him/her. will everybody's life be perfect in the future or will things happen? who would not want a perfect life, healthy & happy. but is that possible? some things are meant to be said, some things arent meant to be said but if you keep it all in your heart, nobody will know what you are thinking/facing. but you just cant say it out. everybody is not perfect, if you got this, you wont get that. that's life. i am just lacking in the confidence, i just dont think i can make it, i dont think i will succeed, i always think i am behind everybody. a is better than me in this way, b is better than me in this way but i will never be better than someone. i am loving others more than i love myself. Friday, January 11 8 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally my dream gna come true!! i am thinking what items to buy at the concert. but still, i am super high!!! JAYCHOU CONCERT, HERE I COME!!! shall blog tmr. Wednesday, January 9 NEXT FRIDAYYY!!! 18JAN08!!!! OMG!!! JAYCHOU CONCERT!!! but dont remind me that my seats are lousy. BUT to comfort myself, can get the tickets already very good & lucky le!! Do you know how many people out there who cant get the tickets and they are still trying very very very hard to get one. so i am considered very lucky le!!! next friday lehhhhh!!! GRACE DONT BE JEALOUS! today during SS lesson, Tan Y.F ask me and grace to stand up cos we were talking. we did not talk a lot loh & whatever we talk all talking good points about her lohhh!! we say her watch very nice, she very cute, she very young still punish us. hmmph, dont say her good things le. haha. physics/chemistry teacher suck like shyt man! 2 impt sciences and we have such teacher!! history tchr also the same lah. chinese teacher even worse! these few days, 1 moment i can be very happy and 1 moment i can be damn 'emo' dont like to use that word on me. but ya, cant find another word. and at the time, i really feel like scolding people. haha, but i never. i am a good girl(ahem). ya so i apologise if i got de zhui you. paiseh!! i dont know if i should say it out, now i really got no one i can tell this to. it is so damn irritating lah. wth. walking past each other, nothing said, no smile, nothing. i dont know what can i say. Sunday, January 6 listening to fahrenheit new album now, now at track 5 - TiAmo, damn nice, seriously. the girl's voice very nice & the melody is nice(: their songs are quite nice afterall. went to sch today, for the cca thingie. SIAN. i went cos i give face to mad & shinyi, and partly i wanted to tell mrseow i want quit. but everything did not turn out well, i am still not out of that stupid fucking co. if not because of co, everything would be so nice. sectional practice i dont want go, da zu pract i also dont want go! i just want to have nothing to do with co. cant they just do me this favour? you expect me to stay for how long? until i graduate & crap about DSA and everything, do you think i still want to take up co as my cca in JC/Poly? shinyi told mrseow that she dont mind da zu, & i told him i minded a lot. i just dont know what's bothering me but i just dont want spend another 1 yr plus, pon-ing, not looking forward to practices, complaining about practices, hate co even more. 1 yr plus is not short, he said until like so simple. you are not the one facing the prob. shinyi is always very optimistic about everything, so i dont think there's a prob for her. but me, i really dont know what i can say. no interest, no talent, how do you expect me to stay in the cca? & expect me to speak to msyeo, it is very obvious that afterall, she wont let you quit the cca. talk all the crap again, i dont know how i am going to survive. monday, there's pract. i am dreading it, really dreading. why do people enjoy their cca so much & i have so much problems. after that go JP, i ate mushroom and ham baked rice, quite nice(: baked rice is just so nice. then slacked around at JP, then met liyan at je mrt arnd 4pm. went queenway to buy FBT. i bought the white and green one while liyan bought the white and blue one. before we reached queensway, we boarded the bus in the wrong direction, and so we had to go to the other side to board the bus. but it was raining heavily. so ended up walking in the rain. alighted from the bus, walked to queensway in the rain again. then after buying FBT, we went to eat. at first i dont want eat de, but the food very tempting. so ended up eating laksa. liyan ate curry chicken rice. famous stall, food very nice, although the laksa wasnt spicy. the after that go home le. i was walking in the rain again when going home. third time in the entire day. yesterday it was also raining when i walked home, and everytime, the rain very big. i think i am gna fall sick sooner or later. today long post bah! wasted my time complaining about that dumb cca. ahhhhhhhhh, can somebody please help me? all because of you, i am thinking too much. Friday, January 4 2nd day at school was fun? funny i would say. the guys keep saying park, i still dont know the story how the word PARK came about but haha, laughed a lot. teachers up to now are still considered nice, at least our geog tchr is better than mdmpoon, i dont know why, but i seem to think that jameskoh will teach us a lot & perhaps make me like geog. but today's video wasnt interesting, maybe i was always looking at the clock, waiting for the bell to ring. councillors so gd, pon the whole day class leh. & mrstan came to sch today, we shocked dao cos thought she was not coming today. she arranged the class seating plan & i am sitting in the 3rd row, damn in front lah, beside grace and minghe. grace is sitting beside aoquan, i am jealous. haha. but i nvr talk to minghe today, dont know what to say to him also, so paiseh. haha. tmr got double science, one word - sian!!! i am looking at pictures i dont want to see. ahhh. 307 girls((: not all though) mrjameskoh telling hadley da dao li. who ask him go transfer class! geog punishment. theres more! i forgot what class was that. bags in umbrellas! mrstan more clever, she tore open the black trash bags for us to put bags on top. retard-.-" Nice hair! thats grace btw. JIAQIAN IS STUDYING!(she looked pale) JOANNE IS STUDYING! liyan & me i escaped from the camera Thursday, January 3 finally my 200th post. first day back in sch. i am still not used to it being in sec 3 ,being upper sec, having the same recess as the sec4 & new classmates. 307 gna rock, that's what i think. the people in 307 are nice(most) & liyang looks like aoquan! & the worst thing of all is mrstanhweetheng is still my form teacher, & that means i am gna have the same form tchr for like 3/4 years? not that i dont like her, but having the same form tchr doesnt seem nice. haha. i got a jaychou singapore concert backstage pass from joanne & grace & jiaqian? thanks ar! haha. like real lah, if i really got backstage pass. but they really go print leh, then damn real de. gna be busy memorising lyrics. i am guilty, cos i hvn completed memorising and i must memorise before the concert. i very lazy leh, must use my brain and everything. depends. haha, dont memorise wont die bah! 15 days 2 hours more!!!!!!!!!!! Tuesday, January 1 saturday after going to my grandma house, my parents, my aunt and i went to geylang-.- my aunt wanted to find someone so my dad drove her there. to look for someone, you have to get down the car. haha, so my dad did not get down the car, he needed to take care of the car. so it was only, me, my mother and my aunt. terrible experience i tell you, the whole place there is very very complictated. heard a lot of things from those lau ah peh, damn disgusting. ahhhh. then i keep holding on to my mom's hands. i was really scared. it was very crowded there & it just simply sucks there. then went home about 12 plus. sunday went to my father's friend house. the only fun part there was playing bingo, but i did not win any money. sian. haha. the rest of the time, i guessed i was just wastin gmy time. there was no one there to talk to me & my brother nvr go, i was alone. my parents were busy talking to their friends. then asked liyan call me, lucky got her, or else i gna be bored like siao. bt we talk about 30 mins nia. went home about 1 plus. & i asked my mom to wake me up when she wake up(arnd 6 plus) or else wed i late for sch. i think i got wake up but i went back to slp again. & i woke up at 10 plus. just watched finish dnyby & tka. dnyby very nice, tka some parts very boring de. tmr onwards is 2008 le leh!!! damn fast. omgomgomg. i still got no goals for the year. suan le. later gna go my grandma hse countdown, bbq. hope it gna be fun(: