在最亲的人面前，我会把自己的感情隐藏起来。

怎么分辨谁是谁非，即使是我的父母

父母是在我初二时离婚的，离婚前父母处于冷战阶段，所以我就先去外婆家住，自己也变得比较独立，感觉很像出去冒险，大人都很少管我，当时朋友都很照 顾我，所以生活并没有太大的变化，这倒让我有时间去思考。当然希望父母离婚后各自都能快乐，所以父母离异对我并不会有负面的影响，他们能做各自喜欢的事， 负担压力都变得比较小，不管是父亲也好母亲也好，都变得比较自由，所以离婚有时也不见得是坏事，很多事是无法分清谁对谁错的。

我的童年，很孤单，却不孤独

小的时候曾经想过能有一个弟妹可以陪伴，但觉得爸妈养我已经很累了，如果再多生一个，生活负担会很重。独生子的生活比较无聊一点，但也因为是独生 子，对人生的想法也会比较不同，很多事情只能自己解决没人能帮忙，这让我变得比较独立。若我有弟妹的话，会变得比较会替别人想，会让自己比较客观。但现在 想一想，若有弟妹的话，生活会比较快乐，所以还是蛮羡慕别的家庭有兄弟姐妹的。

为了朋友，我可以付出，只要对他们有帮助。

人不轻狂，枉少年

小时候的死党现在已经到美国读书，不然就是在当兵啦，当初我们都是爱打篮球的一群，为了要占篮球场，每天一下课一定是第一个冲出教室的。最疯狂的事就是不论在联考前或是下雨天，我们还是一样照打篮球。

严厉的钢琴老师

我小的时候常被打，小学时考试成绩没到标准就会被打手心。记得有一次还被老师捏耳朵，直到上初中才稍好一点，所以小时候被打都已经习惯了。让我印象 最深的就是我的钢琴老师，他是个很严厉但却很厉害的钢琴老师。只要一弹错、不专心或是我回家没练琴他都看得出来。我是比较害怕上他的课，但现在想想，若我 当时没上他的课，也不会有现在的音乐底子，所以这位钢琴老师对我的人生真的影响蛮大的。

朋友是要交一辈子的

为了朋友，我可以付出，只要对他们有帮助。如果我的成功可以为朋友带来一些帮助，我是不吝啬地帮忙到底。因为我也是从默默无闻一路走来，才拥有今天 这样的成就。对我来说，朋友是要交一辈子的。只要我好，也希望能尽最大的努力帮助他们。当然我也可以不计酬劳，从密集的工作行程中硬空出两天的时间，尽管 拍摄当天顶着烈日在街头流汗狂奔，且工作时数超长，也没关系。而且在拍片现场和导演交换意见、修改脚本，我也学到很多。（谢啦，阿邝导演！）

最单纯的爱情，必须当你是个平凡的人才会出现。

第一次亲密接触

在幼儿园时，我曾偷偷喜欢坐我旁边的小女生。我还记得有一天我们在上画画课，她就坐在我旁边，我还亲过她的脸颊呢，而且还亲过不止一次。第二次亲她 的时候，我还叫其他小朋友来看，我觉得我小时候还满专情的，幼儿园时只喜欢过她，但她后来却不知搬哪儿去了，我们就这样失去联络啦（现在想想，觉得自己还 蛮白痴的），但我还留着我跟她的合照，现在回想起来还觉得蛮好玩的。

“姜太公钓鱼”爱情理论

初恋是在我初中时发生的，她是我隔壁班的女同学，她让我感受到一见钟情的感觉，第一眼看到她就很喜欢、很想认识她，但却没机会。后来学校举办一个班 级合唱比赛，当时我是担任伴奏，也许是因为这个原因，她开始对我有些好奇，于是我认为这个鱼儿应该已经上钩了吧。追求过程其实不能说是简单啦，应该算是慢 慢从朋友变成情人吧，大家开始一起出去玩，送她去补习，还故意制造一些浪漫：弹些音乐、写些歌给她听。当时的大安森林公园还没建好，我们的第一次亲吻可不 是亲嘴，而是亲脸颊，（我发现我还蛮喜欢亲女孩子的脸颊），当时就是在大安森林公园建到一半的时候发生的。

这是我的初恋，也是我第一次的失恋，疗伤期还挺长的。当时刚好碰到联考，所以期间就没有再联络，当时我靠打篮球来发泄情绪，直到联考考完后，我才把她约出来彻底的把话讲清楚，当然朋友是没法做了，我们也就没再联络过。直到上高中，过了没多久我才又交了女朋友。

okay finally done. my brother's book very nice. i am trying to find somewhr that sells this book man!!!

happy valentine's day.

i am getting crazy over jay's old songs. they really sound better than those that he released in recent years, but they are all good. just that last time de better(:

went grace's house to wrap up valentine's day present. and because of grace's clever idea, it turned out like shyt. hahahha! then after that we got lazy to wrap, just stuffed everything in a bag and planned to bring it to sch tmr. we bought too many stuffs-.-" listened to a lot S.H.E songs today, what do u expect in grace's house.

i scored 7/25 for chemistry test. woohoo. i failed, expected. 307 gna rule! only 7 ppl passed, and the lowest mark is 0! woohoo!!! heck care le lah, my science all the while results like shyt, so cant blame me. i told my parents my marks, they scolded me. sian. then my mom says she gna confiscate my jay's stuffs if i score badly in my EOYS which are months later. wahaha.

tmr gna watch P.S i love you with i dont know who. hope the show gna be nice and hope i wont cry since steph say the story very sad. but recently i cry very easily, so i shall see.

hey, you can stop reading. i got the mood to type about the book le(:

JAY:

如果有了弟妹，童年就不会无聊了，也不会东想西想，每天可以跟兄弟姐妹一起出去玩。小时候大都是跟邻居还有同学一起玩，不能说我自闭，但的确自己的空间比 较大，有好处也有坏处。如果有了兄弟姐妹的话，我想我的人生想法也会跟现在不同。以后结婚，希望也能多生几个小朋友，让他们自己玩耍，可以组成一个乐队， 有人会打鼓，有人会弹吉他，或组成一支篮球队，毕竟人多总是比较热闹。

在最亲的人面前，我会把自己的感情隐藏起来。

怎么分辨谁是谁非，即使是我的父母

父母是在我初二时离婚的，离婚前父母处于冷战阶段，所以我就先去外婆家住，自己也变得比较独立，感觉很像出去冒险，大人都很少管我，当时朋友都很照 顾我，所以生活并没有太大的变化，这倒让我有时间去思考。当然希望父母离婚后各自都能快乐，所以父母离异对我并不会有负面的影响，他们能做各自喜欢的事， 负担压力都变得比较小，不管是父亲也好母亲也好，都变得比较自由，所以离婚有时也不见得是坏事，很多事是无法分清谁对谁错的。

我的童年，很孤单，却不孤独

小的时候曾经想过能有一个弟妹可以陪伴，但觉得爸妈养我已经很累了，如果再多生一个，生活负担会很重。独生子的生活比较无聊一点，但也因为是独生 子，对人生的想法也会比较不同，很多事情只能自己解决没人能帮忙，这让我变得比较独立。若我有弟妹的话，会变得比较会替别人想，会让自己比较客观。但现在 想一想，若有弟妹的话，生活会比较快乐，所以还是蛮羡慕别的家庭有兄弟姐妹的。

为了朋友，我可以付出，只要对他们有帮助。

人不轻狂，枉少年

小时候的死党现在已经到美国读书，不然就是在当兵啦，当初我们都是爱打篮球的一群，为了要占篮球场，每天一下课一定是第一个冲出教室的。最疯狂的事就是不论在联考前或是下雨天，我们还是一样照打篮球。

严厉的钢琴老师

我小的时候常被打，小学时考试成绩没到标准就会被打手心。记得有一次还被老师捏耳朵，直到上初中才稍好一点，所以小时候被打都已经习惯了。让我印象 最深的就是我的钢琴老师，他是个很严厉但却很厉害的钢琴老师。只要一弹错、不专心或是我回家没练琴他都看得出来。我是比较害怕上他的课，但现在想想，若我 当时没上他的课，也不会有现在的音乐底子，所以这位钢琴老师对我的人生真的影响蛮大的。

朋友是要交一辈子的

为了朋友，我可以付出，只要对他们有帮助。如果我的成功可以为朋友带来一些帮助，我是不吝啬地帮忙到底。因为我也是从默默无闻一路走来，才拥有今天 这样的成就。对我来说，朋友是要交一辈子的。只要我好，也希望能尽最大的努力帮助他们。当然我也可以不计酬劳，从密集的工作行程中硬空出两天的时间，尽管 拍摄当天顶着烈日在街头流汗狂奔，且工作时数超长，也没关系。而且在拍片现场和导演交换意见、修改脚本，我也学到很多。（谢啦，阿邝导演！）

最单纯的爱情，必须当你是个平凡的人才会出现。

第一次亲密接触

在幼儿园时，我曾偷偷喜欢坐我旁边的小女生。我还记得有一天我们在上画画课，她就坐在我旁边，我还亲过她的脸颊呢，而且还亲过不止一次。第二次亲她 的时候，我还叫其他小朋友来看，我觉得我小时候还满专情的，幼儿园时只喜欢过她，但她后来却不知搬哪儿去了，我们就这样失去联络啦（现在想想，觉得自己还 蛮白痴的），但我还留着我跟她的合照，现在回想起来还觉得蛮好玩的。

“姜太公钓鱼”爱情理论

初恋是在我初中时发生的，她是我隔壁班的女同学，她让我感受到一见钟情的感觉，第一眼看到她就很喜欢、很想认识她，但却没机会。后来学校举办一个班 级合唱比赛，当时我是担任伴奏，也许是因为这个原因，她开始对我有些好奇，于是我认为这个鱼儿应该已经上钩了吧。追求过程其实不能说是简单啦，应该算是慢 慢从朋友变成情人吧，大家开始一起出去玩，送她去补习，还故意制造一些浪漫：弹些音乐、写些歌给她听。当时的大安森林公园还没建好，我们的第一次亲吻可不 是亲嘴，而是亲脸颊，（我发现我还蛮喜欢亲女孩子的脸颊），当时就是在大安森林公园建到一半的时候发生的。

第一次失恋

这是我的初恋，也是我第一次的失恋，疗伤期还挺长的。当时刚好碰到联考，所以期间就没有再联络，当时我靠打篮球来发泄情绪，直到联考考完后，我才把她约出来彻底的把话讲清楚，当然朋友是没法做了，我们也就没再联络过。直到上高中，过了没多久我才又交了女朋友。

okay finally done. my brother's book very nice. i am trying to find somewhr that sells this book man!!!

happy valentine's day.

Wednesday, February 13

okay, i need to buy valentine's present man, i hvn buy any, and valentine's is like 2 days later which means i only have tmr to buy. i dont know who i should buy and what i should buy. nice one!!

i passed my amaths. i was shocked, i expected a fail for this test, cos i totally dont know how to do. but whatever, i passed. i seriously need to study, can someone just keep telling me to study for my common tests. i need to mugmugmugmug, although i have completed reading all my textbooks from page 1 to the last page, like real.

stef and liyan went to watch KFD today and they loved the show. just got that very happy feeling whenever i hear nice nice comments about jay. they said jay is cute in the show!! woohoo..

jay is my brother, surprisingly normally girls like to call their 'idols' their husband/boyfriend or whatever, but jay is my brother. that is the fact lah =p he went to eat kfc with me today, yah like real. grace and i kept imagining us being really close to jay & hebe. wahahha. then we talked without laughing or what lah, really like the fact! we are damn pro siah. actually i told myself that today i shall not talk about anything concerning jay, but but but today was a lot of jayhebejayhebejayhebe. hahahhaha! i think i gna go crazy man!

the battle between CJ7, KFD and that Ah Long Pte Ltd withing four days in singapore only.
1st place : CJ7
2nd place: Ah Long Pte Ltd
3rd place: KFD

what the hell. first place was expected but that ah long pte ltd won kfd?? omgomg. i was like totally shocked. damn it lah, then that jackneo like so arrogant like that. damn it siah. how can my brother with kfd cast and the big nig director lose to 1 small small, stupid jackneo? this is so stupid man!!! but nvm, this is only in singapore. hahah. seriously, singapore movies always own jay's movie man. first was that 881, then now this ah long thing. but first4 days nia, i dont care.

i am supposed to continue with the book written by jay but i very lazy. next time!

我沉默 你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么 不说 哎哟
微笑后 表情终于有点难过

Tuesday, February 12

i went crazy today, over i dont know what thing. & grace and i were imagining us being somehow related to jaychou and hebe. so grace is hebe's good friend, those besties stuff then grace said that i am jay's sister. uhm, not something to be happy about but jay like to have siblings, so its okay!! hahah. grace, jay and hebe very pei okay!!

watched dnyby just now, last 2nd ep i think, this ep quite nice. and i laughed at some parts when i saw hebe's acting. you wont know if the expression is really needed in the show or what? the expressions are just plain weird. hahaha. i have got many shows to watch, shall just watch them after CT, need to study lah. damn it. my history's test got 8/12, quite gd lah hor, since i studied my facts on the day itself. i rock man! tmr must stay back for math lesson):

okay, i think below dont need read le lah. cos is about jay's book. i just came across this website with all the stuffs from the book typed inside, wonderful. nice nice book. if you can stand reading a lot of chinese words or u want know about jaychou more(which i think u wont want), then read lohh. or u can read just the highlighted parts.

His mother:
感謝上帝在1979年1月18日給我一個寶貝兒子，胖嘟嘟笑起來帶著小酒窩，可愛的模樣真的很討人喜歡。
從小杰倫聽到音樂就會興奮的隨著節奏搖晃，不只愛看孫越、陶大偉的表演，也常戴著墨鏡模仿高凌風唱歌，坐在電視機前也會跟著廣告唱唱跳跳。三歲對錄音有興趣，就常常拿著錄音機錄自己的聲音，或唱歌，或編故事，自編、自導、自演又自唱一番。
四歲讀幼稚園的同時，也在山葉幼兒音樂班學鋼琴。直到小三，杰倫又提出想學大提琴以及樂理，因為對音樂的喜愛，甘願背著沉重的大提琴，擠上262號公車趕 大提琴課，看在眼裡真的覺得心疼。所以，我也常帶他去國家音樂廳，聆聽音樂家的演奏，如，馬友友、林昭亮等大師的演奏會，我們絕不會錯過。常常，他會很興 奮的要我們聽他作的曲子。有時候也會頑皮的學阿瑪迪斯倒著彈琴，超愛耍帥的！
杰倫的創意不只表現在音樂上，有一次他上電視節目錄影，主持人要求每個藝人畫一張穿裙子的女生，有人畫穿著美美長裙、迷你裙，或者蓬蓬裙的女生，只有 他畫了一位裸著上身正在穿裙子的女生。我好奇的問：「兒子，你怎麼會畫這個？」他很自然的說：「沒錯呀，我是畫穿裙子的女生啊。」原來他的「穿」是動詞， 思考邏輯還真的與其他人大大不同，這就是他的「裸女穿裙子」。
不抽煙、不喝酒、不上夜店的杰倫，最讓我擔心的，是他的老毛病－僵直性脊椎炎，有時候看到他疼到不行，連起床走到房門邊，都要花上20幾分鐘，身為媽 媽的我，卻只能在心裡吶喊：「神呀！我能替他疼嗎？」兒子見到我的不捨，反而過來安慰我說：「媽，我沒事，等一下就好了。」
除了身體的病痛，可憐的孩子，很抱歉！國二時，他必須面臨父母離異的事實，但我要讓他知道，爸媽永遠愛他，也在這個時候，我才發現他突然長大了。青少 年時期的小叛逆他也有，喜歡穿又大又寬的褲子（現在我才了解原來這叫嘻哈），留著中分的頭髮，或者常常打籃球打到很晚才回家，偶爾也會惹我生氣。
愛耍帥裝酷的他，卻也很貼心。有天夜裡，我接起電話，話筒傳來他興奮的聲音：「媽，我現在在上海和平飯店頂樓，看著外灘的夜景，你一定會很喜歡的，下 次我要帶你來」，那一夜，我哭了。又有一天晚上，他打電話回來說：「媽，快到陽台看看。」我連忙跑到陽台，看到公園裡有人放煙火，兒子說：「媽，有沒有看 到煙火，很漂亮吧！」原來那天是情人節，他想給我一個驚喜。今年我生日，他在海外工作，竟然請公司同仁設計我到公司，送我生日禮物、吃蛋糕、唱生日歌，這 群孩子們說：「我不是周杰倫一個人的媽，是大家的媽（真的超感動的……）。」杰倫真的很幸運，公司裡的每個人，就像是大家庭的兄弟姊妹一樣陪著他。( ps ar, the whole chunk of words very nice)
從出第一張專輯以後，受大家的支持和肯定，我深怕他驕傲、自負，當他第一次獲得金曲獎時，我握著他的手，告訴他：「媽以你為榮！但要懂得謙虛，作為一個藝術家要的是有自信而非自滿。」感謝上帝，如此恩待他！願他繼續寫出好聽的曲子，和更多的人分享。

周媽媽 葉惠美

His Ah Ma:
(some parts)
小时候，杰伦很孝顺。吃饭的时候，他都舍不得先吃，会先挟菜说，阿嬷，这很好吃，阿嬷先吃，然后再挟菜到自己的碗里。长大了，也是这样。他对阿嬷很客气。 每次我问他，肚子饿了没，饿的话，要跟阿嬷说。有时候，我会问他，你那里还有没有钱，没钱可以跟阿嬷拿啊。他会说，不用，我还有。阿嬷不要煮饭，我叫便当 来给阿嬷吃。让阿嬷觉得很贴心。

外婆

Jolin:

(some parts)

私底下和杰伦相处很容易，只要把他当大哥哥一样崇拜，偶尔像小弟弟一样让他，毕竟他是独生子，我们这群朋友俨然就像他的兄弟姐妹一样，出门在外永远 都是他在照顾我们，抢着付账还会被他的“双刀”砍哩！但当他变帅气的魔术供大家消遣娱乐，不小心被看到破绽时，绝对要像哄小弟弟一样：“哇，好厉害！这是 怎么办到的？都看不出来耶！再变一次好不好？”这时小杰真的会再变一次呢！而且更帅气哩！别说我们欺负他，咱们只是顺着羊毛摸，哈哈！

第一次和他合作，应该算是《骑士精神》吧！天哪，我从来没有这么害羞过耶！不是因为要和他面对面，而是因为要唱RAP。他在录音前几天都会打来电话 说：“就照着DEMO唱，很快的。”但天晓得他这个人就是天才啊，他的RAP哪有酱简单，结果落得我在录音间，唱得跟蚂蚁一样小声，也是第一次见到他严肃 的一面，直呼：“在唱什么啊！大声一点，到底有没有听DEMO练唱？”当时我差点哭出来，一点唱歌的感觉都没有，偏偏那首歌是我沉寂快一年半后的第一首 歌，双重压力之下，庆幸出来效果还挺不赖的，杰伦也在半年之后拔刀相助，写了一些歌送给我，真的超级感动，谢谢他没放弃我这位学徒，真的非常谢谢！

i very lazy le. tmr then continue. if you are reading this, i bet u just skipped the whole chunk of words above, okay nvm. cos i did not put it here for you guys to read, just feel like. hahhaha.

i am waiting for the day, the day when i totally give up on you. i really hope it comes soon because i dont want to be looked upon as a stupid girl who keeps holding on to something that will never come true.

Monday, February 11

J A Y C H O U ! ! ! !
i am missing him a lot): 18JAN08!!!! & 3FEB08

Saturday, February 9

AHMENG RIP
i was so shocked when i saw the newspapers that she died.

i fell off the bed this morning when i was sleeping, i was dreaming, smth about grace, then i fell. how did i remember it was grace cos once the moment i fell off the bed, the first person that came to my mind was grace. but i couldnt remb what i dreamt about. && now my side back hurts like wth.

i was gambling practically the whole day, wow. at first wanted to have overnight manjong but did not afterall. my dad is still at my grandma house playing manjong with my other uncles. hope he win siah, then he can give me some of his winnings to recoup my losses. hahha.

sister's war? from what i know, i think is her fault but she can treat it like it is not her fault and is because the other sisters are just finding fault with her? cant she think? if she dont do those things, wont ppl have nothing to say about her? she just makes my blood boil. i dont want to make any comments anymore, i just get sick of everything. i really wonder, is there really a spell on her? okay, i shall not care anymore. if things get worse, it will be your fault. i will not pity you or smth, if you regret at that moment, too bad. do you know what i feel like doing/ in fact what i wanted to do since the day i knew about this thing, i feel like calling that person up. just hope that i dont do it. i am now giving you face. GET IT CLEAR!

chicken?! thank you ar, for making me so terrible. but i expected since i started liking to eat chicken. you make me fat):

watched KUNGFU DUNK today with grace and evia at vivo. nicenicenicenice. i think grace must be irritated with me, cos i kept saying jay is so damn cute. && the whole movie is so damn funny lah, it is really very fun to have the whole cinema(ppl) laughing together with you. and i think the most ridiculous thing is that i cried. i did not expect myself to cry cos i watched that part a lot of time le, but today, i just cried. wow. i was also so shocked with myself, but nvm. that means jay's acting and zengzhiwei acting is good!! hahha. true enough, jay's acting improved, there are more facial expressions(: && the way he eats the icecream was so damn cute, okay i shall stop. go watch!!!

my brother called me after a while we left the cinema, he was at vivo also. he was watching KUNGFU DUNK also, but not the same time as me. he was at vivo also, too bad nvr see him. today nvr see him at all): at first he wanted to watch ah long pte ltd, but yay, i convinced him to watch KFD, did i? hahha, just treat it as i did.

i cant gamble this year man!!!! i have been losing my money for the past 2 days but i still want to, esp manjong. dont feel like playing card games this year, i dont know why. my parents gave me their winnings today for me to go out, wahahha. but my dad refused to give me his just now, he won a lot. my mom lah, say what dont cong me. hmmph

oh yeah, yesterday watched this 'documentary' about tattoos. that show is not about ahbeng ahlian getting tattoos, it was just about art. how ppl expresses themselves through tattoos. i did not know i would be so into the 'documentary' but yah, i watched it throughout. i got the sudden urge to have a tattoo, but i think i will never have one. i cant confirm now because dont know which fine day, i just feel like having one. but i cant stand pain. from yesterday onwards, i just have a different perception of tattoos. it isnt about how ah beng & ah lian think they are so cool about them. there was this father, he let his son write his name on his body and asked the tattooist to 'carve' it. luckily, the way the son wrote was quite nice or else.. hahaha. tattoos~

i am going to learn driving the moment i can, i just hope that i wont be scared on the roads.

all i want from you is just a smile, that's enough. i sound like a sicko. although impossible saying it's possible, i know it is still impossible. i am not having a single hope in myself, never. i shall treat it just another thing.
每当听见 她或他说我们,就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

KUNGFU GUAN LAN(not guai lan) IS OUT & i haven watch it. boo. okay, i am watching it tomorrow with grace and evia. i bet evia gna create a lot of extra sounds in the movie. hahhaa.

CNY this year very sian leh, i dont know why. i did not gamble much today. at my grandma house, my dad was the banker then i help me collect the chips nia, then he give all his earnings to me. woohoo! easy money. at my the other grandma house, i was like losing money practically every round i play. hahha.

there was this very cute guy at my grandma's house today. he looks totally like a jap, his dressing, his hair, everything. && i shook the nicest hand i shook today, hahhaa. that guy's hand was damn nice, like he bao yang until very good like that. hahha.

ppl keep smsing me when they are going to/ already watched kungfu dunk, want make me jealous isit? nvm, i watching it tomorrow. just hope that the movie is up to standard siah, as in dont make it a failure lah, but i doubt will be a failure since they spent so much money on filming it. seriously, among the 3 movies, kungfu dunk, cj7 & that ah long pte ltd, i think cj7 will win. it's zhou xing chi lehhh. how can jay compete with zhou xing chi lah? dont need to even consider that jack neo's movie. my dad and i both think that this movie will be a flop. i shall see, cos that time i thought 881 would be a flop but it didnt, was so damn famous lah.

为了《功夫灌篮》，周杰伦北京、新加坡等一路宣传，他表示一忙完中国央视春晚节目，他就马上赶回台湾陪妈妈 ，把4天的春节假期都留给妈妈。他说：“因为忙我已经很久没有见到妈妈了，我最爱吃番茄炒鸡蛋，春节回家她 一定会给我做。从小爸爸妈妈就分开了，我一直跟妈妈过，她一直没有再婚就是为了照顾我，除了我她没有其他的 依靠，所以我希望回报给她更多的照顾。”

he is just so damn sweet and fillial man. zhou mama must be so proud to have such a wonderful son. Tomato omelette? fav dish? ahem. i got some stuffs i want to write which i read from newspaper, just smth i want to "scold" jay. oops, i am so bad. i shall just post it next time.

HAPPY CNY PPL!!!

Friday, February 8

KUNGFU GUAN LAN(not guai lan) IS OUT & i haven watch it. boo.

Thursday, February 7

陈小春 - 我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折

我总会遇见一个 什么人

陪我过没有了她的人生

成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她 真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

她真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说「我们」

就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她 真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

她真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说「我们」

就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见 她或他说「我们」

就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

the song sang by 2008 nanhua idol. love the lyrics & the song a lot.

yesterday was reunion dinner with my dad's side de family. quite fun actually cos me & my brother got to talk a lot yesterday. i really like the way when both of us are not quarreling, although he keep making fun of me lah. actually both of us can be really close sister and brother, it all depends on whether we want to. perhaps cos the time i spend with my brother is very little, we seldom quarrel already & i am loving my brother more((: i dare to say here cos i think my brother wont see this anw. he is coming back home to sleep tonight, hooray. i think he very long nvr step into the house le lohh, i bet when he comes back, i will be chao bu xi guan. haha.. & yst i finally dared to ask my bro to take pict with me le, but he dont want. he promised me during cny, at first he said after he slimmed dwn, then i very bad go say when will it be? hahha. sorry!

early in the morning got flag raising. 412 leaded us in the singing/pledge but i think everybody's attention was on dance. i am starting to hate dance man!!!! they are like so extra can? they purposely go sing loud loud and SHOUTED the pledge, they want to show how "enthu" they are isit? stupid lah. always hear dancers say what a lot ppl hate dance, then blahblah. i think i know why they hate them, cos dance is so so so so extra, they think they very big isit? want to show how united you ppl are, there are so many internal conflicts inside lah. sorry dancers!! but that is the fact.

Cny celebrations in sch today. saw marcus lim, he damn beng can? hahha. finally the sch releases us early, last few years the concert always end at very late, but this year, it ended even before the expected time. i think the best part of today's concert is the nanhua idol. zoe sang quite well today but she did not win): the sec 205 guy won, i tell u his singing is damn nice. he can go participate css man! && sec4 joel's singing rocks man. didnt know he can sing so well, hahha. but he kept oh~ oh~ oh-ing. hahha, damn funny.

at first did not plan to go back to sv today de, but since shinyi & sylvia want go back, then i do back lohh. nothing much actually, i did not go sv though. just went tthe basketball court to meet them(yijie, zhicheng & banana brought us there. thanks!) then headed for lot 1. they super sian de, we go eat(after deciding where to eat for very long) then they wanted to go home le. me and sylvia went outside zinc to see if that guy we always see was working, then he really there. he remmebers us lohh, everytime we/ i walk by there, he will sure say hello de. hahhaha. i remember how last time i hated him alot cos he very fan, keep on talk talk talk. hahha, but now, i think he okay le. at first wanted to go sylvia house but afterall did not go. shinyi was like saying if go out with yijie they all better but we not same class. boo. today met shaojie, chinghun, zhiming, xuewei, shriram, juan lih, eugene & hongkai. damn it, she beat my back until so pain, i very da pai i tell you. she came specially to look for ME & shinyi & sylvia.

you are really making me crazy, i guess you dont know.
you will never know.
finally i talked to you after so long.
this is so difficult, i am trying to give up.
it's not that i dont want,
i just cant.
fcuk.

HAPPY CNY!!

Wednesday, February 6

this is the one! he look at us(me and another friend) and pointed at that direction to ask us to see smth!!

managed to look at steph camera! looks a bit retarded. waha.

woots~






see that lucky guy at the back, he got to challenge jay playing the basketball machine.





if u read the previous post, he stoned for a while before waving to us.

why is chenchuhe smiling like that. jay so serious.



poor people, out in the rain.

peifen very pretty

(((((:

cute siah.

close up of the picture on stage

we went up to the stage!! got chased down afterwards-.-

quick shot, one guy was already trying to chase us down already.

me and stephanie


pictures not in order.

Tuesday, February 5

JAYCHOU, I AM MISSING YOU LIKE SIAO!!! AT LEAST U WAVED AT ME & DID THAT SOMETHING WHICH I DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY. sorry if we kept disrupting you from talking. sorry, must understand, since your next visit to singapore would be when? months? years?
shall update later. need to do stuffs.

JAYCHOU!!!!!

updated.

this post would be damn long since i nvr posted in 3 days cos i nvr use compt in 3 days. & i have got a lot of pictures. today grace was like saying she nvr see me online for friday, saturday and sunday. i am so proud of myself, this shows that i am not a computer addict & uses the compt everyday. the reason i nvr on the compt is that i was watching the jaychou concert dvd.

friday
went kfc with grace, steph & jiaqiani was locked out of house cos i forgot my keys. i hate it when i forget my keys. yah so, i stayed outside my house until my parents came home. i was sitting at the staircase & my neighbour saw me, it wasnt a good thing. cos they kept coming out of house to check if i was okay, & stuffing food and drinks to me. i appreciated that but you know, very guai. then lot 1 popular called me up to tell me that the dvd was out for sale. & so i bought the dvd at night. thats why i wasnt online that day. these are the only things i remembered that day.

saturday
went shopping with my cousin. shopped until leg pain. nothing much actually. then went to my grand ma house. i got nothing better to do so i played with my smaller cousins. && took pictures of them. cute cousins, although they can be quite irritating at times.

Sunday
THIS IS THE DAY. shall i write everything in caps. okay nvm, i shall not. early in the morning, i woke up at 5 plus( i slept at 1 plus going to 2), surprisingly i wasnt feeling tired. i went to bathe and stuff and got ready to go out. i called my cousins first cos they said they want to go but in the end i think they too lazy, they continued sleeping. heck care them. i headed to bugis square. steph cabbed there so she reached earlier than me. there was only like less than 10 ppl there, steph was shocked but i hai hao. cos from long time ago, i already know jaychou fans arent that type who queue very very early & stuffs. we are nice & matured fans unlike frh ones. I WAS AT THE FIRST ROW, IN THE CENTRE!!! okay, i hvn mention why i went to bugis sqre that early, but i think u can guess it. At there that day, there was a KUNGFU DUNK EVENT WHERBY THE CAST & THE DIRECTOR WOULD BE THERE, INCLUDING JAYCHOU! i think most ppl went to the event for jay.

the security guards there were nice, compared to others at those events which i went before. though the security guards like to crap a lot, but they kind of entertained us. okay, i shall not talk about the queuing part, though there are a lot of funny stuffs & steph got real close to 'jay' wahha. see pictures later. luckily me and steph went to eat our lunch early or else we wont get to eat our lunch eventually. it started raining, the fans at the back got no shelter and they are scared of rain. they started squeezing to the front, chaos i tell you. ppl from the back rows can suddenly appear in the first few rows. & damn it, it was damn squeezy i tell you. but yah, i cant do anything. the 3 girls behind me and steph became our friends and we started talking and complaining about china ppl. there were a lot of china ppl at the event and i dont know why. talked and realised that 1 of them was a nanhua senior. i looked closely at her and realised i really got see her before.

so we stood and talked for like 5-6 hours. damn tiring and my legs hurt like siao. but i cant do anything, moving my arms and legs were already very difficult. finally, the DJ peifen went up the stage, we thought that jay and the rest was arriving already but they started playing games, in fact competitions. the nicest scrapbook and the basketball machine. yah then FINALLY, they arrived. only jay and chenchuhe was there. chenbolin(i want to see him!!) was sick, he did not come to singapore. the director came but he was resting in the hotel. dont care him lah, not as if i want to see him. once jaychou appeared, the whole place damn chaotic. ppl from the back squeezed like siao, once he came out, i could feel that the barricades were moving, like it was going to fall soon. throughout the whole thing, steph kept saying "the barricades" but there was nothing i can do. & the common name between us(a person) she kept pushing me and steph, & put her arms on our shoulders to take photograph. then her hand keep pushing my face, my specs nearly fell off, damn her man! i was very worried jay would suddenly look down the stage and see me like that, so i attempted to push her away and wore back my specs. she damn hiong lah. then the other person was like shouting at the top of her voice, i did not know it was her until steph told me. gosh, jay fans can be crazy man! & i hate it when the china ppl screamed for jay, they would shout some funny funny stuffs and think that it was very cool.

okay, enough of complaining. jaychou waved at me & my senior!!! i was super happy, in fact we. we looked at each other and screamed lah. later when he seeing the ppl play the basketball machine, he looked at us again & did something, see picture. he was like telling us to see the person very pro. then me and my senior screamed lah. we were like super super happy. then steph was like saying chenchuhe very kelian, cos like nobody screaming for him. so we shouted his name. he like shocked dao, stoned for very long before waving at us. then jay was also looking at us, scared he think we came for chenchuhe siah. chenchuhe damn shuai man!! i think i am gna fall in love with him but not the way he talk, the accent. i dont like. but he very shuai.

jay also very shuai yesterday but his make up damn thick siah. && his red pants, eew. just dont like him wearing that pair of pants, wear jeans so nice. haha. the second time i see him this yr already, i am super super happy. && 2 times all quite close to him, the only thing now is i dont get the chance to shake his hands and get his autograph. pls, but i guess i wont see him until next yr or worse, until his next concert(2 to 3 yrs more). most likely, he will have another movie next yr and will come to singapore to xuan chuan again. hope so, but 1 yr very long also lohh. nvm, prepared for pictures siahh. my god, i typed a lot about jay's event. my legs were like aching so much lah, cant even walk properly.

pictures will be posted later

Friday, February 1

mrqueck can you stop be so irritating and act big when you are only a small small teacher in nh? what the hell, what rights do u have to scold us & throw the mop which nearly hit janny? come on lah, dont interfere so much can? make mrtan so paiseh lah, pity mrtan man. feel so sorry for him. his pay damn good lah, 65bucks 1 day, very shuang. but have to shou qi, very bu zhi de. i realised whatever mrqueck says is always repeated, he is always saying the same things. wahha. &&& he is a complain king. eeeew. mrqueck go talk to mrstan with yian about what happened in p.e, then the girls were like aside, waiting for yian. then the guys outside 307 looking at us. hahhaha.

then go this stupid cc with 307 & 306. i tot we would do the stuffs in a air conditioned place but turned out that it was this dumb hot and small place. hahha. got 2 classes & then still got SP students also. wth. nothing fun actually there, cut paste cut paste. lili very bad, go steal our(grace me & liyan) work then go claim is hers. then give us her ugly one. aiyooo, so bad ar. hahahha, jkjk. our work really damn nice lah, with holes here and there. hahah. then go 7-11 & playground. after that go sumo house eat. the place we went, i go before with pri sch friends, really miss the old days, when many of us would walk back together.

do you know that u suck, giving that stupid expression. if u do once or twice, i wont really mind it, but if u have that face like always, comeon, it can be so so damn sickening. && whatever u do, just dont suit the real you. this is not fake, just very fake. i just realised smth yst that u are a straightforward person, but u are trying to act u are not. u try to an shi stuffs but in the end, say until so obvious. need to practice more lehh or else laokui. i shall not mention ur name here, dont want embarrass u, just continue guessing if it is you. & can u have your own thinkings? always trying to stick arnd with ppl, like without him/her, you will die.

yay, i am going to see jay this sunday with steph & my cousin(maybe). if this time he pangseh me also nvm, cos got steph. ahhh can anyone tell me what time should i go on sunday? the thing strt at 5.45pm, steph say 8am is late. but i dont want wake up so early, how???!!!

there is always this funny expression between us, you made me crazy today. thanks ar.